I was going to blog more about my "Heart of the Problem" journey tonight, but I decided not to. It's really got me grappling with some things right now. Stuff that I need to chew on before I spit it out here for the world to see. But I will write again about what I'm learning and the things God is teaching me through this book. There is certainly more to come on this topic, I assure you.
Having said that....
Though I'm not going to write about my heart of the problem, I am going to stay along the same lines and write about lessons. As I'm in the midst of learning several lessons of my own right now.
I think it's safe to say that the lessons we learn in life shape who we are as individuals. Whether they have brought joy or pain, we always walk away with a tad more wisdom then we did before the lesson was learned. And because of my faith, I can also safely say that these lessons, in shaping who we are with wisdom for future opportunities, both joyful and painful are just another example of how God works in our lives. It shows just how good God is to involve Himself in the details of our lives.
I'm fascinated almost daily, hourly at what He is teaching me through my daughter. To watch and interact with her connects me to my Lord in ways that I can't even describe. It's cyclical in ways~ being with her teaches me about motherhood as Christ would have me mother and in turn it brings me closer in worship with my Father out of shear joy that He has blessed me with the opportunity to be her parent. Emma and I shared a tomato today. We just sat in the floor and took turns taking bites. I know that special moment was a lesson. I can say now that the lesson is to always cherish the small things, but in time I think even greater wisdom can be gleaned from such a simple opportunity.
Every person I come into contact with, both old friends and new, are divinely placed so that I may learn something or share something to be learned or both. You just never know how God is going to use the people around us or even use ourselves for the good of others. I can look around me and know from the bottom of my heart that God has placed the people in my life for a reason. And that is a refreshing feeling.
Lessons come in the form of smiles, helpful strangers, insightful words, and even a song that we've heard millions of times, but touches us right at the exact moment we need it. That's God meeting us where we are.
Sometimes bad things happen. Things that break our hearts and leave us wondering if we will ever recover, but Jesus knows. He knows us to our depths and He knows what will come of it all as well. In the midst of these uncertainties, we can be certain of Him and His love. If we rely on Him then He will bring the peace to our hearts that we so long for. We may not understand or even learn immediately, but Jesus is patient and we can find hope in knowing that even in trying times, God will use it for His glory. That is a difficult lesson, but a beautiful one as well.
And I could go on and on and on....
In writing this I'm realizing even more lessons God is teaching me through calling me to express these thoughts. Lessons lie within lessons. It's an ongoing and ever evolving process.
But my point is I believe there is a reason, a divinely orchestrated plan for why and how everything happens. God loves our details and He is a full-on participant in trying to help us be better at who we are. Despite how big and mighty and Holy He is, because of Jesus we can confidently go before our God and soak in all He has for us as His children if we look around and pay attention.
That's a pretty remarkable lesson if you ask me.